Fix Me

You can’t fix me

Neither can I

And the unspoken disappointment

Makes me want to cry

Cancer has broken me

In ways you can’t know

Surgical scars are visible

But the worst ones don’t show

There’s a hole inside

Where once was me

Few remnants remain

Sadly none you can see

You can’t fix me

Neither can I

My tears fall silently

Down my cheek and dry

Body turned on me

Reality shaken

Fear moved in

Confidence overtaken

There’s a shell outside

Which once was me

Unrecognizable mostly

Sadly all can see

You can’t fix me

Neither can I

I have stood on deaths doorstep

Looked it straight in the eye

You want it to be over

Starting fresh, start anew

But normal now evades me

Who I am, what I do

The pain still reminds me

It wont let me forget

My body can’t be trusted

It may turn again yet

No you can’t fix me

And no neither can I

But together we can learn

How to live before we die